It’s 9 am. Woke up at 1.30 and later at around 5. It sucks.

And my restriction is frustrating also. Without food I can’t be ok. I had 630 so far but now I’m already waiting for tomorrow to have food again. I don’t care for the rest of this day, I have nothing to look forward to.

I can’t stop thinking about chocolate but I also want to be thin. I don’t know.

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So I kind of failed. Ate 1500.

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It is around 6 right now. Pm. Feeling bad. Very. Got a Pepsi earlier. Test was fairly fine.

I’m just remembering the older times with people that I used to spend them with. But I don’t miss them. It breaks my heart a bit that they were my friends but it wasnt a good relationship. Now I’m lonely but at least not with someone who’s projecting their insecurities on me.

I hope I’ll fix my eating. Don’t know about the low restriction but will try to eat “healthier”, like veggies n stuff and cut out sweets. And Pepsi.